I woke up this morning. Full Stop.
I woke up this morning with a very full heart and a clear head. Now, if you know anything about my life, my struggles with insomnia and the cats, that in of itself is amazing.
But today is special. It is my one-year #AnnyAnniversary
On this day in 2017, I suffered a massive ruptured aneurysm (actually I had two).
I felt it so clearly. Just BAM! It felt like the back of my head had blown out. It was different than any headache or head pain I’ve ever felt, and I’ve had migraines my entire life. I knew something was terribly wrong. I took a bunch of Advil in a stupor and then walked to Whole Foods and back to my condo where I finally made the decision to call an Uber and go to the emergency room.
You’ll be able to read all about it in my upcoming book “Mindblown.” (ed. coming soon)
So, today I made the exact same journey as that fateful morning. I wore the exact same clothes actually. Blue shorts and my STP shirt. I walked the alley, noticed the cars and the new colors of paint.
So much has changed in a year.
The Whole Foods is closed now (it’s a long story, they may open again under the Everyday 365 brand).
“The Park” which was the quintessential neighborhood bar is an entirely different place that looks out place.
The homeless dude I used to buy street poetry newspapers from is gone.
There are no more Car2Gos.
And the biggest change -my mom is no longer with us. She had an apartment just off the parking lot of that Whole Foods. I didn’t call her that morning. At this time last year, she was sleeping in that very room, behind those very windows as I walked passed, and I thought, “Jeez, it’s early, I don’t want to wake her.”
Little did I know, I would be in emergency surgery to stop the bleeding on my brain and save my life by lunchtime.
It was a long recovery, and it was touch and go whether I’d survive even then, much less, recover and thrive.
I know how hard my being in the ICU for 3 weeks was on her. But she was always there for me, right to the end.
I’ve had multiple brain surgeries and one hell of a hard year of recovery. The physical side is still hard, but I’m chipping away at it. I could not have done it without my rock, my partner in crime, my muse, my down-ass chick. She was an angel and continues to be so supportive even now.
As for my noggin … I am writing and producing music. In fact, I am writing a song today. I have no deficiencies – as they say- I can walk, run, write, sing, play, program, do maths, edit videos, all of the things! Seriously, it’s like it didn’t happen for the most part. I actually think I and getting better at a lot of creative tasks.
So, raise a glass, light something up, here’s a hearty “Cheers!” to all who have survived, whatever it may be.
What a great day to be grateful.
If you have the means, please consider making a donation to the Brain Aneurysm Foundation – an amazing organization.